When I walked by his side on that beautiful Spring afternoon, I would have never suspected he would become the reason I hold on to life right now… He managed to make my life so much easier after I was diagnosed with cancer, even though he did not know.
My skin burns, my hair is a mess, I have no make up on… plain shorts and simple t-shirt, so not me….
I look to the horizon and I feel complete, I feel the sea water on my feet and I cannot believe I am in love. I breathe and feel love all around me, even though you died, I know you are here and you are with me.
Stop and listen. Do not get distracted, focus. Look into my eyes and hold on to life. I know what it feels like to feel all alone even when you have people everywhere around you, but the don’t hear your screams they don’t feel your pain… they just don’t care.
Put your hand in my chest and feel my heart beating faster, I care…please don’t die! don’t close forever your eyes…
I close my eyes and remember all the good moments we spent together…. I miss you but at the same time wonder how?, how can I possibly feel this way still, after all this time, after you broke my heart. You left me at 45 years old, after a life together, with three kids and for a woman five years older than our oldest son. Our son is fifteen.
Serious risk include blood clots. I was scared when I held the bottle in my hand . All the pills in there plastic coating. I was going to take them all, I just got nervous when they warned me about the blood clots that not how I wanted to die.
I really want mushrooms,I feel like they are and one only thing that relly lets me be myself. I ssee the world differently everytime I eat one and I love it. Said Jonathan.
“I DON’T CARE WHAT YOU SEE “ Jonathans Mother replied.
Mom you never, let me , be me.
How many days till I die? There are so many ways. How many time over and over do I have to think like this. The death of my mother lingers around me. I cant take it anymore. The gieco commercial plays on the television.
Billy was sitting down. He was a about two years old. Mommy gave him a skateboard for Christmas but I stole it from him. It was a race car to me. I took all my nail polish and poured it all over so it had a nice gloss finish.
This is going to be a racial thing. Said Jamal. Why do you think im always doing drugs? Just be cause your white and Im not. I hate drugs you roll on extacy everyday you fool. Its people like you who make these dumb accusations and make me look bad.
My anti depressent isn’t enough. The commercial keeps calling my name but im too afraid to confront my doctor. I have a daughter what if she finds out. Why don’t I get social security or life insurance. In a mid life crisis my mind spins. I want this to be over.
Girl try to remember when we didn’t have no shoes. We traveled all over, if your feet hurt Id let you stand on mine. When we came up to mountains Id carry you on my back and when the ground was to hott Id walk first so my sweat would cool the harsh roads down.
Are you feeling lonely? When you look at me, when you can only look at me. When you see that smile you thought only you would ever see. If you could get me away do you think were we could get a bite to eat, because I know you. Your love for me you think years ahead
If you let me back in I would show you I can not hurt you. I should have seen what was in front of me. She sleeps next to you in our bed. Infront of you the mural I painted, did you paint over it? Did she?
